Utter destruction today, and oddly enough, or should I say as expected? It’s my own doing, or, is it not? As expected I have no idea, as expected I am bumbling and fumbling around in the dark again.

My desires are for love and connection. My desire is the light. Yet what happens over and over again is I find myself trapped in the pit. I climb a bit out and then fall back in again.

Will I ever escape? Will I ever escape the pit of despair? The destruction?

Today again, I am destroyed.